If anything has happened over the last several days in my mind it's that I don't care what gets done, well, at least not as much as I did before. The poor babies that were killed in Connecticut make me treasure my girls and my time with them and the rest of the family even more.
I feel like my blog has a pattern - not being able to get done what I expect myself to get done and not being able to do these things because I'm a working Mom who doesn't get to spend much time at home. I'm hoping that I don't remain so boring with the same complaints and thoughts. It's been a rough couple of months with lots of things going on, some of which I will talk about and some I won't. We've been blessed to have Mom and Dad, especially Mom, be the caregivers for the girls since the end of September. All I will say is that it wasn't a choice I wanted to make but I also didn't have a choice. On top of that, since July Nan had been in and out of rehab, hospital, and back home. Her congestive heart failure made it hard to breathe which started the pattern one July evening where she went to the hospital...until she came home and went back and then went to rehab twice between July and the end of October when she came home. The day after veteran's day she started on hospice care and went peacefully to be with Pa in heaven on Saturday morning, December 8th. We were blessed to have her with us for 4 years after the doctor in Florida gave her 3 months back in December of 2008. But are we really surprised with the very strong Russian woman that Nan was? No. And I pray that I am as blessed as she was, to have family care for her and be with her all the time, to have had 6 great-grandchildren and live with 2 of them to watch them grow. As much as it pissed me off when it happened, I will remember Nan for laughing when the girls did something they weren't supposed to do, and taking them all (including Shadow the cat) on rides with her "wheels" (rolling walker).
We are settling into a new normal at home and though it's not easy and the girls are definitely testing the waters, we are hoping for a nice Christmas this year. For someone who had the majority of the shopping done before Thanksgiving and the tree up the day after Thanksgiving, I haven't done well past that. Things still on my to-do list on 12/18 are: Christmas cards, decorating the tree, putting the stockings up, and LOTS OF WRAPPING, nevermind the things I wanted to do like make reindeer on canvas with the girls footprints and Christmas lights on canvas with the girls fingerprints! But I'm going to take Nate Berkus' advice from his blog to heart and "make time for movie night by the glow of white tree lights, hot chocolate and laughter by the fire and the happy satisfaction of knowing no store line for holiday presents kept you from being present for those you love". Thanks Nate for the reminder of what's really important even though I know it, it's still nice to be reminded. (Quote courtesy of: http://www.nateberkus.com/tis-the-season/)
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